By Anne Levin
Transformation involves finding the gain from past pain and moving forward with forgiveness.
Maybe that’s what finding my authentic voice is all about. In my very first Transformative Life WritingTM course, I en-visioned my creativity as a secret garden that I’d lost the key to long ago. I feared I’d never return there and was searching and searching for a key. Here I discovered that there was no key—and that the door wasn’t, and had never been, locked. Next a revelation of a kind of spiritual photosynthesis sprang from just a wee green paperclip. And wild nature ran and sparkled through all my notepads, reviving me, sustaining me. My passion tank. My oxygen tank.
They’re all here in this transformative process, pushing me into discomfort. Changed perception leads to understand-ing, leads to forgiveness, and forgiveness is love. I’m not sure I want to go there. I’d like to wallow a while longer in resentment, anger, indignation. When you feel wronged you feel almost deliciously right. My grudges feel as comfy as tatty old slippers. I know they don’t flatter me, but I don’t want to part with them, the longer I’ve had them the more they feel part of me.
Forgiveness takes more. It’s a mountain to climb. But that’s where this road is leading, right to that mountain and up its steep slopes.
I climb the mountain towards
forgiveness and love.
© Anna Levin 2016
Find was originally published in “Creative Journey Five Minute Meditations for Transformation” Published by Heartspace Writing School.
Biography – Anna Levin
Anna Levin is a writer living in Central Scotland. She trained with Joanne Klassen and received facilitator certification in Life Writing for TransformationTM, through Woodbrooke Quaker Study Centre. She specializes in natural history journalism, combining her love of words and the wild world. Anna has a special interest in people’s connections to the rest of the natural world and loves working where words and pictures meet.