By Farrukh Akhtar
This above all: to thine own self be true,
and it must follow, as the night the day,
thou canst not then be false to any man.
I have been thinking about Nelson Mandela and his quest to be the best that he could be. He spent 27 years in prison and left thanking the guards who held him captive. Me? I notice every micro-aggression and hang on to it for dear life. I use it as an excuse to make others wrong and batter myself further, to remain in a heavy, doubting, hurting place.
Am I reading too much into something? Perhaps, but I don’t want to stop seeing with the depth and range of detail that is my gift. I do want to leave the heavy, lonely place I inhabit.
Better, not batter. That seems to be the key. I want to be able to have an honest dialogue with others, irrespective of who I am communicating with. I want to remain true to myself, not lose or diminish myself or others in the process.
I speak my truth without offending others.
In speaking my truth, I seek resolution.
© Farrukh Akhtar 2016
Resolve was originally published in “Creative Journey Five Minute Meditations for Transformation” Published by Heartspace Writing School.
Biography – Farrukh Akhtar
Farrukh, a senior lecturer at a London university, has been involved in the helping profession for over 25 years. As a Transformative Life WritingTM (TLW) facilitator, she runs workshops at the university and in the community. She is the TLW Facilitators’ Co-ordinator for Europe and edited their training manual. Farrukh is founder of an incognito but internationally acclaimed book club. She loves writing, the theatre, communing with vegetables on her allotment, and having friends over for dinner.